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Another entry
Dec. 6th, 2005 01:40 pmHmm, this is going to be one of those entries that I have trouble figuring out how to start. It isn't a problem once I actually start it, it's just starting it that's an issue. But, alas, I do believe I've started it, so...
Since I last wrote, things haven't been too bad. Sunday was enjoyable, (I did end up going home for awhile, and I have since retrieved my cell phone, so that's a good thing), and I actually forget what else I did on Sunday. Oh yeah, that's right--Kristen and I went over to our grandparents' to help decorate the tree, and then my mom came by, and we all went to get the tree for our house. It's a nice tree, I think, but I don't know if it's decorated yet, although I'm guessing not. I haven't been home yet to find out for sure. Maybe we'll do that this weekend. We ended up eating dinner at my grandparents' on Sunday, and then I came back here to school and did who knows what, I certainly don't remember that's for sure. I do, however, know for a fact that I started and actually finished that one book for History, so now all of the reading is done, and now I have to just study and make sure I can draw on the readings at least in part to answer the exam questions.
Yesterday wasn't too bad, classes went well, and I studied for my Linguistics final that I have this afternoon at 5, right after my Anthropology class. I now have both of the charts that we need for the exam, so that's a good thing, because they are kind of important in taking said exam. I've studied, so let's just hope I do okay. I'll try my best, at any rate, and I guess that's really all I can do.
Today I didn't have my 9:30 Linguistics class, because the class was taking the final then, and I'm taking it later today. I went over to the Disabilities office to help them put together the charts I'll need for the exam. The charts are Brailled, laid out on poster board, so I can actually see the rows and columns, and it makes sense to me, which is the most important thing. I understood it somewhat without the chart, but having the chart just makes it all the more easier. We weren't required to memorize the chart, anyway, so the fact that I don't have to is also a good thing. Around 11:40, I called my mom and she and Kristen picked me up, and we went to have lunch at my grandparents' house, (it's a Tuesday tradition more or less).
This brings me to now, in my room sitting here, writing this entry. I have class at 3:30, which shouldn't be too bad, and then the final at 5, which I'm hoping won't be all that bad. As long as I try my best, that's all that matters, and that's really all I can do, is it not?
I discussed it with the ADA director today, and I think I'm just going to take an Incomplete at this point for the one computer class and finish things up over break. It's frustrating, and not really what I want to do, but sometimes things just happen that way. I've done a lot of the work, so most of it is the exams that I need to take, and of course finish up the work. Part of me wonders if it's my fault that things happened this way, if there is something I could have done to not have this happen--maybe I didn't work hard enough or try hard enough--I don't know. I just feel like I've let myself down, and that I haven't shown the professor that I actually do know what I'm doing, do know what I'm talking about. I'll probably meet with him sometime soon to discuss this, so I'm sure things will be fine--I know they will--so maybe I should stop worrying and think positively and that things will be okay. An Incomplete doesn't mean anything, anyway. It doesn't mean I'm failing/I've failed the course, it doesn't mean that I'm a bad person, and it doesn't mean that the world will end or people will think any less of me. Heck, it doesn't even stay on my transcript, and as soon as I finish the course, a grade will be substituted. If I can get a B in this class, I'll be happy. An A would be nice, but I'll take a B and be totally happy with it. I'm also not the first person I'm sure to get an Incomplete not out of lack of doing work, either. I'll still live at home, (I see no reason for me staying on campus just to finish up the one course--that, and I absolutely do not want a meal plan), and my mom has already told me not to worry about it, that there will be enough people to take me to campus when I need to go to meet with the professor, which I'm guessing wouldn't be every day. The details will be iorned out eventually, and I'm sure things will be fine, so I really do think I should just shut up and stop worrying about this before it drives me insane. Why do I do this to myself, for real?
With that, I think I'll end this and relax some before class and the exam. More sooner rather than later.
Since I last wrote, things haven't been too bad. Sunday was enjoyable, (I did end up going home for awhile, and I have since retrieved my cell phone, so that's a good thing), and I actually forget what else I did on Sunday. Oh yeah, that's right--Kristen and I went over to our grandparents' to help decorate the tree, and then my mom came by, and we all went to get the tree for our house. It's a nice tree, I think, but I don't know if it's decorated yet, although I'm guessing not. I haven't been home yet to find out for sure. Maybe we'll do that this weekend. We ended up eating dinner at my grandparents' on Sunday, and then I came back here to school and did who knows what, I certainly don't remember that's for sure. I do, however, know for a fact that I started and actually finished that one book for History, so now all of the reading is done, and now I have to just study and make sure I can draw on the readings at least in part to answer the exam questions.
Yesterday wasn't too bad, classes went well, and I studied for my Linguistics final that I have this afternoon at 5, right after my Anthropology class. I now have both of the charts that we need for the exam, so that's a good thing, because they are kind of important in taking said exam. I've studied, so let's just hope I do okay. I'll try my best, at any rate, and I guess that's really all I can do.
Today I didn't have my 9:30 Linguistics class, because the class was taking the final then, and I'm taking it later today. I went over to the Disabilities office to help them put together the charts I'll need for the exam. The charts are Brailled, laid out on poster board, so I can actually see the rows and columns, and it makes sense to me, which is the most important thing. I understood it somewhat without the chart, but having the chart just makes it all the more easier. We weren't required to memorize the chart, anyway, so the fact that I don't have to is also a good thing. Around 11:40, I called my mom and she and Kristen picked me up, and we went to have lunch at my grandparents' house, (it's a Tuesday tradition more or less).
This brings me to now, in my room sitting here, writing this entry. I have class at 3:30, which shouldn't be too bad, and then the final at 5, which I'm hoping won't be all that bad. As long as I try my best, that's all that matters, and that's really all I can do, is it not?
I discussed it with the ADA director today, and I think I'm just going to take an Incomplete at this point for the one computer class and finish things up over break. It's frustrating, and not really what I want to do, but sometimes things just happen that way. I've done a lot of the work, so most of it is the exams that I need to take, and of course finish up the work. Part of me wonders if it's my fault that things happened this way, if there is something I could have done to not have this happen--maybe I didn't work hard enough or try hard enough--I don't know. I just feel like I've let myself down, and that I haven't shown the professor that I actually do know what I'm doing, do know what I'm talking about. I'll probably meet with him sometime soon to discuss this, so I'm sure things will be fine--I know they will--so maybe I should stop worrying and think positively and that things will be okay. An Incomplete doesn't mean anything, anyway. It doesn't mean I'm failing/I've failed the course, it doesn't mean that I'm a bad person, and it doesn't mean that the world will end or people will think any less of me. Heck, it doesn't even stay on my transcript, and as soon as I finish the course, a grade will be substituted. If I can get a B in this class, I'll be happy. An A would be nice, but I'll take a B and be totally happy with it. I'm also not the first person I'm sure to get an Incomplete not out of lack of doing work, either. I'll still live at home, (I see no reason for me staying on campus just to finish up the one course--that, and I absolutely do not want a meal plan), and my mom has already told me not to worry about it, that there will be enough people to take me to campus when I need to go to meet with the professor, which I'm guessing wouldn't be every day. The details will be iorned out eventually, and I'm sure things will be fine, so I really do think I should just shut up and stop worrying about this before it drives me insane. Why do I do this to myself, for real?
With that, I think I'll end this and relax some before class and the exam. More sooner rather than later.
