An entry because I can
May. 18th, 2006 03:38 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
unsilenceddreamI just got back in from a meeting, and figured now would be as good a time to write as any.
Yesterday was the last day of classes, which all went well, so that's a good thing. I don't have to go to any more classes this semester, which is definitely a good thing. I'm finding it very hard to believe that a week from tomorrow, it'll all be over, finals included. I handed in my Philosophy paper yesterday--or rather emailed it to him the night before--so that's in and out of the way, even if I don't really know if I did well on it or not. I fixed things and read it over at least five times, and those who read it said it was good, so why am I worrying about it? Why? Because I worry about things; that's just how I am.
I just got back from a meeting with my advisor and reader regarding the computer class, and I'm going to take an exam that combines concepts from the last two exams next Wednesday. While the situation is really lose-lose either way we look at it, it's one exam instead of two, which means I won't have to worry about scheduling time to take the second one, but while it is only one exam, everything from two exams will be on this one, definitely a lot more stressful let me tell you. Apparently my grade on the exam I just took wasn't the greatest, but I tried my best, and the mistakes I made weren't on purpose, it wasn't because I didn't know how to do things. I get the concepts fine, some of the syntax was just off, which were honestly typos, and one of the questions I got wrong wasn't because I honestly thought what I put was the answer, there were similar answers, and I guess I just put the wrong one. It's hard having to flip back through Braille page upon Braille page of exam, especially if the questions and answers are on separate pages, and especially with this type of exam. Braille symbols shouldn't have to look so similar to one another, seriously. I'm guessing sighted people don't have to worry about that, because they get the questions and possible answer choices all on the same page--what a concept! Oh well, I can't worry about it now can I? I'll just try even harder on this last exam--even though I tried my best on the previous exam, so I don't know what "trying harder" really amounts to in this context--and I'll check and check and check and recheck and recheck and recheck and recheck all of my answers and everything, so maybe I can at least get a better grade.
As for finishing the programming project, I'm going to concentrate on that after taking the exam, so I'll technically have more time to prepare, which means that I'll probably have to come back to school on Saturday, Sunday, and Monday to finish things. Can we say no weekend next weekend whatsoever? If this class doesn't end up being the end of me, I seriously don't know what will. The grade I'll eventually get for this class won't reflect at all what I know, which makes me very very sad. I can just see my GPA sliding down little by little, laughing at me. Hmm, well ok, it can't actually laugh at me, but you get the idea. Sometime yesterday, I tried to think about what was the thing that was causing me the most stress so that I could try to eliminate it, and I came to the conclusion that the reason for all of my stress is this class. So much for eliminating my stress. If it wasn't an issue, I would be fine, but instead...
I don't really know what else to write here. I just tried to get a hold of Kristen to see if we were meeting for dinner, but she didn't answer her cell phone. Maybe she'll call me back after she realizes I called. Tonight I need to continue studying for my Music Appreciation exam I have tomorrow. I've listened to the excerpts that I'm suppose to listen to, and I think I can tell them apart from one another--some are very distinguishable while others sound slightly similar--so I'm starting to feel better about taking the final. I know I should have started the listening portion earlier, but I didn't. I oftentimes work better under pressure with those kinds of things anyway. I just need to read through my notes and the lecture slides, and I think I'll be okay. It's multiple choice, so it shouldn't hopefully be too bad.
I haven't decided if I'm going to the beach or not, I really don't know at this point. I really do want to go, but part of me says that I should stay here and study. I haven't told anyone that I'm thinking if not going, though, so there would be that I'd have to do. If I didn't go down, though, I wouldn't get down until August, which is really far away. Again, if it wasn't for this one class, I would feel a whole lot better about going down, but it is what it is I guess.
Alright, I think that about does it for me. I'll update at some point later I'm sure. Now to figure out how to tackle the next week and get things done while still keeping my sanity and not reaching my breaking point--maybe if I don't sleep at all...
Yesterday was the last day of classes, which all went well, so that's a good thing. I don't have to go to any more classes this semester, which is definitely a good thing. I'm finding it very hard to believe that a week from tomorrow, it'll all be over, finals included. I handed in my Philosophy paper yesterday--or rather emailed it to him the night before--so that's in and out of the way, even if I don't really know if I did well on it or not. I fixed things and read it over at least five times, and those who read it said it was good, so why am I worrying about it? Why? Because I worry about things; that's just how I am.
I just got back from a meeting with my advisor and reader regarding the computer class, and I'm going to take an exam that combines concepts from the last two exams next Wednesday. While the situation is really lose-lose either way we look at it, it's one exam instead of two, which means I won't have to worry about scheduling time to take the second one, but while it is only one exam, everything from two exams will be on this one, definitely a lot more stressful let me tell you. Apparently my grade on the exam I just took wasn't the greatest, but I tried my best, and the mistakes I made weren't on purpose, it wasn't because I didn't know how to do things. I get the concepts fine, some of the syntax was just off, which were honestly typos, and one of the questions I got wrong wasn't because I honestly thought what I put was the answer, there were similar answers, and I guess I just put the wrong one. It's hard having to flip back through Braille page upon Braille page of exam, especially if the questions and answers are on separate pages, and especially with this type of exam. Braille symbols shouldn't have to look so similar to one another, seriously. I'm guessing sighted people don't have to worry about that, because they get the questions and possible answer choices all on the same page--what a concept! Oh well, I can't worry about it now can I? I'll just try even harder on this last exam--even though I tried my best on the previous exam, so I don't know what "trying harder" really amounts to in this context--and I'll check and check and check and recheck and recheck and recheck and recheck all of my answers and everything, so maybe I can at least get a better grade.
As for finishing the programming project, I'm going to concentrate on that after taking the exam, so I'll technically have more time to prepare, which means that I'll probably have to come back to school on Saturday, Sunday, and Monday to finish things. Can we say no weekend next weekend whatsoever? If this class doesn't end up being the end of me, I seriously don't know what will. The grade I'll eventually get for this class won't reflect at all what I know, which makes me very very sad. I can just see my GPA sliding down little by little, laughing at me. Hmm, well ok, it can't actually laugh at me, but you get the idea. Sometime yesterday, I tried to think about what was the thing that was causing me the most stress so that I could try to eliminate it, and I came to the conclusion that the reason for all of my stress is this class. So much for eliminating my stress. If it wasn't an issue, I would be fine, but instead...
I don't really know what else to write here. I just tried to get a hold of Kristen to see if we were meeting for dinner, but she didn't answer her cell phone. Maybe she'll call me back after she realizes I called. Tonight I need to continue studying for my Music Appreciation exam I have tomorrow. I've listened to the excerpts that I'm suppose to listen to, and I think I can tell them apart from one another--some are very distinguishable while others sound slightly similar--so I'm starting to feel better about taking the final. I know I should have started the listening portion earlier, but I didn't. I oftentimes work better under pressure with those kinds of things anyway. I just need to read through my notes and the lecture slides, and I think I'll be okay. It's multiple choice, so it shouldn't hopefully be too bad.
I haven't decided if I'm going to the beach or not, I really don't know at this point. I really do want to go, but part of me says that I should stay here and study. I haven't told anyone that I'm thinking if not going, though, so there would be that I'd have to do. If I didn't go down, though, I wouldn't get down until August, which is really far away. Again, if it wasn't for this one class, I would feel a whole lot better about going down, but it is what it is I guess.
Alright, I think that about does it for me. I'll update at some point later I'm sure. Now to figure out how to tackle the next week and get things done while still keeping my sanity and not reaching my breaking point--maybe if I don't sleep at all...
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you can do it!
Date: 2006-05-18 09:23 pm (UTC)I just read your post and know where you're coming from. I think we've allhad those exams that we know we could do better if our blindness wasn't an issue but, you said it when you said it is what it is and you can't go back now. I hope you are able to make it through the next week. I'll be thinking of you.
Re: you can do it!
Date: 2006-05-19 12:47 am (UTC)Thanks for the comment. You're definitely not the only one who hopes I can make it through next week.
Take care.
Re: you can do it!
Date: 2006-05-19 12:50 am (UTC)I don't hope it, I know it! Keep talking to yourself and you'll make it.
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Date: 2006-05-19 06:25 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2006-05-19 12:42 pm (UTC)Thanks for the comment and vote of confidence. Final's week definitely is/can be evil that's for sure.
Take care.
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Date: 2006-05-19 02:06 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2006-05-19 02:39 pm (UTC)Take care, thanks for the comment, and I'll talk to you later.