![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
Reflections
Feb. 4th, 2006 10:35 amAfter going to bed around two, I haven't decided if it's a good or a bad thing that I'm up now, but it is what it is nevertheless. I'm still somewhat tired, although I can always take a nap later, unless naps have henceforth been outlawed, which would be a very very bad thing indeed.
Yesterday was fine as days go. My headache that I had written about previously did go away with the help of some Advill and a good night's sleep, thank the gods, and I was definitely glad of that. Yesterday didn't consist of a whole lot except trying still yet unsuccessfully to script this assignment so I can submit it, read, chill, and do whatever else I did and just can't remember at the moment. In the afternoon, my mom sisters and I all went out for drinks, which was alright, even though I seriously don't think I could take a whole night of drinking/smoking/very very loud bar atmosphere. It was fine enough, though, and then Kathryn Kristen and I left for dinner at Margaretas Pizza (spelling, because I'm almost sure that's wrong), where I indulged in an ever-so-deliciously-tasty cheese steak, mmm tasty for sure. I had thought I'd only eat one half then and save the other, but when the second half of said cheese stake was being consumed, I guess there went that idea.
The laptop that Kathryn ordered came yesterday, and so she wanted me to help her set it up. In all actuality, she wanted me to set it up, but I said no, she was going to do it, although I'd help her of course. She wanted to work on that after we came back from dinner and whatnot, which was originally fine, so we took everything out of the boxes, and I showed her what I thought was what. In terms of setting it up, I thought it better that we wait and turn the machine on when we had a pair of working eyes as I wasn't sure if there would be any important information or any information that would be required of us to enter on our end, but Kathryn took the machine downstairs and turned it on anyway. As a result of having no pair of eyes around at that time, she then proceeded to just turn it off shortly after she turned it on. Not the best thing to do in my opinion, and I told her as much probably more than once, but what can you do? I'm sure nothing happened to the machine and it's all still fine and good, but that isn't something I really like to put a machine through if I can help it. As for setting it up, maybe we'll do that later today, I don't know.
Tonight the family is headed down to Rehobeth to go to a bar I think, maybe Dewey, (spelling?) and who knows what else. I've opted not to go, firstly because I don't really know if I want to do the whole bar thing, (yeah yeah, I'm weird probably, but I think that kind of thing might be cool if you actually had some friends who could go with you...), and secondly, because I figured I'd just stay home ith the animals. I should probably get my things ready to go back to school tomorrow, although that won't be all that hard as I have a lot of it packed already. I usually don't ever unpack totally when I go somewhere, and just prefer to live out of my suitcase. It works, and I stay organized, so it's all good. I also want to get this one library book scanned so that maybe I can drop it off tomorrow and not have to worry about it being due back once the semester gets underway and things undoubtedly become crazy. Either way, I'm sure I'll figure out something.
Speaking of school and going back, part of me will be glad to--the going to classes and doing work part--but another part of me really somewhat doesn't want to go back. I'm sick of living in a dorm room by myself, not having anyone else there to hang with really, and only one room in which to move around. Here at home, it's nice, because I can go downstairs or up in my room or wherever, providing me a change of scenery, which I like. I'm also surrounded by people, which is another nice feeling. Even when I'm doing my own thing and they're doing theirs, it's nice to just know there are people around, people who I can talk to if I want or need to, people who I can hang or relax with, people who I can just be around. I'm not sure if any of that made sense, but it's the way I'm feeling, and I do know feelings don't always make sense some of the time.
I'm also sick of having to pay for a meal plan at school, especially when I know I don't use the dining hall all that much. Speaking of which, I'm thinking of changing my meal plan from ten meals a week to six with I think more points or whatever they're called. I like going to the dining hall with friends, that's very enjoyable, and I'm glad I do it, but when I don't go with friends, some of the time I don't really want to go. It's not like I can just go in, swipe my card, get food, and then leave--it's somewhat of a big deal what with trying to find someone who can help me through the line, to a seat, and then out if I need it depending on where I sit if I don't know my way to the door. I really want to see if there would be any way I can get an apartment for next year, especially because there's the possibility of my having to graduate in December instead of next May, although if I can do anything about it, I'll graduate in May, even if it means taking a few extra classes here and there. Whatever happens regarding graduation, I'm sure things will be fine. As for an apartment, I would need something close enough to campus so that I could get to classes and things without too much trouble, although there is always ParraTransit (sp?) that I could use as well. If I could find a friend or someone to room with, that would be cool, but even if I could find a one-bedroom, I think I could deal with that also. I realize that would be living by myself, but living by yourself in an apartment is different than living by yourself in a dorm. I might actually prefer living by myself, unless I could find a friend or someone who wuldn't mind dealing with my dog, something else which one has to consider. I don't really know how to go about finding an apartment, and it's probably early yet to even be looking, but I really really hope I can find something or something can work out. I think I'd be happier if I could be off campus, in my own place, feeling like I was doing something on my own. Not that I'm not doing something on my own now, I am, sort of, but this would be different. Again, I don't know if any of that made sense, but it is what it is.
I think that's enough reflectiveness for one entry. That, and it's taken me awhile to write all of this down. For anyone who has actually read this far, I commend you. These are just the things one thinks about sometimes, and it's nice to get them down like this, out in the open, if only for myself to look bac on later. I'm sure I'll be back later, with another entry in my usual, semi-sarcastic, semi-serious style.
Yesterday was fine as days go. My headache that I had written about previously did go away with the help of some Advill and a good night's sleep, thank the gods, and I was definitely glad of that. Yesterday didn't consist of a whole lot except trying still yet unsuccessfully to script this assignment so I can submit it, read, chill, and do whatever else I did and just can't remember at the moment. In the afternoon, my mom sisters and I all went out for drinks, which was alright, even though I seriously don't think I could take a whole night of drinking/smoking/very very loud bar atmosphere. It was fine enough, though, and then Kathryn Kristen and I left for dinner at Margaretas Pizza (spelling, because I'm almost sure that's wrong), where I indulged in an ever-so-deliciously-tasty cheese steak, mmm tasty for sure. I had thought I'd only eat one half then and save the other, but when the second half of said cheese stake was being consumed, I guess there went that idea.
The laptop that Kathryn ordered came yesterday, and so she wanted me to help her set it up. In all actuality, she wanted me to set it up, but I said no, she was going to do it, although I'd help her of course. She wanted to work on that after we came back from dinner and whatnot, which was originally fine, so we took everything out of the boxes, and I showed her what I thought was what. In terms of setting it up, I thought it better that we wait and turn the machine on when we had a pair of working eyes as I wasn't sure if there would be any important information or any information that would be required of us to enter on our end, but Kathryn took the machine downstairs and turned it on anyway. As a result of having no pair of eyes around at that time, she then proceeded to just turn it off shortly after she turned it on. Not the best thing to do in my opinion, and I told her as much probably more than once, but what can you do? I'm sure nothing happened to the machine and it's all still fine and good, but that isn't something I really like to put a machine through if I can help it. As for setting it up, maybe we'll do that later today, I don't know.
Tonight the family is headed down to Rehobeth to go to a bar I think, maybe Dewey, (spelling?) and who knows what else. I've opted not to go, firstly because I don't really know if I want to do the whole bar thing, (yeah yeah, I'm weird probably, but I think that kind of thing might be cool if you actually had some friends who could go with you...), and secondly, because I figured I'd just stay home ith the animals. I should probably get my things ready to go back to school tomorrow, although that won't be all that hard as I have a lot of it packed already. I usually don't ever unpack totally when I go somewhere, and just prefer to live out of my suitcase. It works, and I stay organized, so it's all good. I also want to get this one library book scanned so that maybe I can drop it off tomorrow and not have to worry about it being due back once the semester gets underway and things undoubtedly become crazy. Either way, I'm sure I'll figure out something.
Speaking of school and going back, part of me will be glad to--the going to classes and doing work part--but another part of me really somewhat doesn't want to go back. I'm sick of living in a dorm room by myself, not having anyone else there to hang with really, and only one room in which to move around. Here at home, it's nice, because I can go downstairs or up in my room or wherever, providing me a change of scenery, which I like. I'm also surrounded by people, which is another nice feeling. Even when I'm doing my own thing and they're doing theirs, it's nice to just know there are people around, people who I can talk to if I want or need to, people who I can hang or relax with, people who I can just be around. I'm not sure if any of that made sense, but it's the way I'm feeling, and I do know feelings don't always make sense some of the time.
I'm also sick of having to pay for a meal plan at school, especially when I know I don't use the dining hall all that much. Speaking of which, I'm thinking of changing my meal plan from ten meals a week to six with I think more points or whatever they're called. I like going to the dining hall with friends, that's very enjoyable, and I'm glad I do it, but when I don't go with friends, some of the time I don't really want to go. It's not like I can just go in, swipe my card, get food, and then leave--it's somewhat of a big deal what with trying to find someone who can help me through the line, to a seat, and then out if I need it depending on where I sit if I don't know my way to the door. I really want to see if there would be any way I can get an apartment for next year, especially because there's the possibility of my having to graduate in December instead of next May, although if I can do anything about it, I'll graduate in May, even if it means taking a few extra classes here and there. Whatever happens regarding graduation, I'm sure things will be fine. As for an apartment, I would need something close enough to campus so that I could get to classes and things without too much trouble, although there is always ParraTransit (sp?) that I could use as well. If I could find a friend or someone to room with, that would be cool, but even if I could find a one-bedroom, I think I could deal with that also. I realize that would be living by myself, but living by yourself in an apartment is different than living by yourself in a dorm. I might actually prefer living by myself, unless I could find a friend or someone who wuldn't mind dealing with my dog, something else which one has to consider. I don't really know how to go about finding an apartment, and it's probably early yet to even be looking, but I really really hope I can find something or something can work out. I think I'd be happier if I could be off campus, in my own place, feeling like I was doing something on my own. Not that I'm not doing something on my own now, I am, sort of, but this would be different. Again, I don't know if any of that made sense, but it is what it is.
I think that's enough reflectiveness for one entry. That, and it's taken me awhile to write all of this down. For anyone who has actually read this far, I commend you. These are just the things one thinks about sometimes, and it's nice to get them down like this, out in the open, if only for myself to look bac on later. I'm sure I'll be back later, with another entry in my usual, semi-sarcastic, semi-serious style.
