The subjectlessness of not having a subject
I'm feeling absolutely unbelievably tired, so I'll probably be going to bed rather soonishly after I post this. I was laying down earlier, but got up, and just want to go lay down again. I'm feeling somewhat crappy, too, which doesn't help things...
Classes today went well; nothing too exciting to report there. After class, I ended up going to dinner with some friends around 7, and then went to a bonfire after coming back here and starting to give Anthropology notes to one of my friends. I felt somewhat bad for leaving in the middle of that, but my friend Allison came and knocked on my door, asking if I wanted to go to the bonfire thing, and at first I said no, because I was actually doing something, but my other friend said don't worry about it, I could give her the notes later. That being said, I went to the bonfire, and it was fun. I had a SomeMore, some apple cider, and there were some singing ensembles performing there as well. It was unbelievably really really cold out, but it was still fun all the same. I also made thisn hart-shaped picture frame that is now stuck to my air conditioner/eater due to magnets on the back. I really don't know how it came out, but apparently it looks cool, or so I've been told. You drew on the thing with stick things and supposedly color now shows through. (I apologize for the somewhat crappy description of that and the bad grammar that was mixed in, but I am really tired, so...).
Tomorrow I only have my one Geology class at 1:25. This is due to the fact that the exam for my programming class hasn't been made ready for me yet. We want to try a different way of me taking it, and the prof wants to do a dry run before I actually take the thing, which I have to agree is a very good idea. I also don't have all of the necessary study materials yet, so he wants to give me those and go over them so that I can have time to study them before the exam. Other than that, I'm not sure what is on tap for tomorrow. I might go home tomorrow because my friends Steph and Joe want to continue helping my sister Kathryn with something on her computer that they started doing the weekend I was in New York for the walkathon, (which I still haven't even updated on yet), so if that does end up happening, it'll be cool. Even if not, I really do want to actually do something tomorrow. I just want to get out for awhile and not think about schoolwork. It feels like all I ever do is work, and that's probably true since I do work what seems like 23 out of the 24 hours of every day. Okay, so that's a possible slight exageration, but it gets my point across. I feel somewhat guilty that I didn't read any more of the book for my history exam on Monday tonight, but such is life... I really shouldn't be this hard on myself, it's probably bad for me.
I've also just been feeling kind of I don't really know what the word is lately. It's getting closer to the holidays now, a time when you're suppose to spend time with family and friends and whatnot and show people how much you care about them. Not that you're not suppose to show you care about them at any other time of the year, because you are, or at least I think so, but it's even more so during the holidays. Sometimes it's frustrating at such times when you don't have anyone to share things with, and I don't just mean any random person; I'll leave it up to you to figure out what I'm talking about--it shouldn't be too hard. I'm sure this feeling will pass, and things will be fine, but it these are just the things I think about sometimes. I really think it's true: you truly don't realize how lonely you really are until you find someone, and then when you don't have that, you miss it. Okay, enough of the sap already.
Before I forget: because I thought it was cool...
Classes today went well; nothing too exciting to report there. After class, I ended up going to dinner with some friends around 7, and then went to a bonfire after coming back here and starting to give Anthropology notes to one of my friends. I felt somewhat bad for leaving in the middle of that, but my friend Allison came and knocked on my door, asking if I wanted to go to the bonfire thing, and at first I said no, because I was actually doing something, but my other friend said don't worry about it, I could give her the notes later. That being said, I went to the bonfire, and it was fun. I had a SomeMore, some apple cider, and there were some singing ensembles performing there as well. It was unbelievably really really cold out, but it was still fun all the same. I also made thisn hart-shaped picture frame that is now stuck to my air conditioner/eater due to magnets on the back. I really don't know how it came out, but apparently it looks cool, or so I've been told. You drew on the thing with stick things and supposedly color now shows through. (I apologize for the somewhat crappy description of that and the bad grammar that was mixed in, but I am really tired, so...).
Tomorrow I only have my one Geology class at 1:25. This is due to the fact that the exam for my programming class hasn't been made ready for me yet. We want to try a different way of me taking it, and the prof wants to do a dry run before I actually take the thing, which I have to agree is a very good idea. I also don't have all of the necessary study materials yet, so he wants to give me those and go over them so that I can have time to study them before the exam. Other than that, I'm not sure what is on tap for tomorrow. I might go home tomorrow because my friends Steph and Joe want to continue helping my sister Kathryn with something on her computer that they started doing the weekend I was in New York for the walkathon, (which I still haven't even updated on yet), so if that does end up happening, it'll be cool. Even if not, I really do want to actually do something tomorrow. I just want to get out for awhile and not think about schoolwork. It feels like all I ever do is work, and that's probably true since I do work what seems like 23 out of the 24 hours of every day. Okay, so that's a possible slight exageration, but it gets my point across. I feel somewhat guilty that I didn't read any more of the book for my history exam on Monday tonight, but such is life... I really shouldn't be this hard on myself, it's probably bad for me.
I've also just been feeling kind of I don't really know what the word is lately. It's getting closer to the holidays now, a time when you're suppose to spend time with family and friends and whatnot and show people how much you care about them. Not that you're not suppose to show you care about them at any other time of the year, because you are, or at least I think so, but it's even more so during the holidays. Sometimes it's frustrating at such times when you don't have anyone to share things with, and I don't just mean any random person; I'll leave it up to you to figure out what I'm talking about--it shouldn't be too hard. I'm sure this feeling will pass, and things will be fine, but it these are just the things I think about sometimes. I really think it's true: you truly don't realize how lonely you really are until you find someone, and then when you don't have that, you miss it. Okay, enough of the sap already.
Before I forget: because I thought it was cool...
If you read this, if your eyes are passing over this right now, even if we don't speak often, please post a comment with a memory of you and me. It canWith that, I really do think I'm going to end this. I'm finding it quite hard to keep my train of thought together, and typing coherently is also proving to be a challenge. More later, holy cr'r'r'r'r'r'r'r'rap I'm tired.
be anything you want, either good or bad.